By Riah Dawson
About Her #1 – I forgive myself in the mirror every morning
Because of you
A verbal rune to heal
The hurt you cut so deep
Baby girl is contradictory in her healing
Chasing the digital ghost of you
What does healing look like in the age of the internet?
Nothing but cold false (digital) comfort
Hypocrite of the highest order I am alone with the ghost of you
To Him #1
I loved before
Love under a bad sign
Love from trauma tied to me to her
“Love” from her brought me to you
So here we are
Three years on
I start to love you
Just like I should have been all along
About Her #2 I barely recognize myself
In the mirror
The girl from 3 years ago Faded, frayed, lost
Desperate for you
She’s still there
Only in the background now
Who I am today? Who am I today?
Another woman Another stranger to you
To Him #2
Under the stars New Year’s Eve and Day Merge on
You are Shiny, new fantastic you
Who are you?
Where did you come from?
Where have you been my entire life?
How was I existing in the world without you?
Who are you and what will you mean to me?
About Her #2 Here’s the secret: You don’t matter
Feelings are fake news – and – It doesn’t matter
All of this is just – just –
Self sabotage dressing itself up as
To Him #3 No one said
Sewing myself back together was going to be easy
About Her #3:
In some type of
I chip at
The pieces that loved you
And give them to
About Him #4
Watch me grow
In my love
Hand to my chest
Hand on my heart
Can you feel the flowers bloom
There Just for you?